Wednesday, May 12, 2010

yogi is just another being, too...

they said the person who can hurt you the most is the one closest to you. so, he or she did and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it?! i believe so. if it is someone who is close and we tend to have many of those around us, things get easier. we can just make a conscious effort to spend less time with these people or better still...slowly but surely try to have less and less things to do with them until one fine day, they'll get the message.

the thing with those really close to us, things get difficult. subtlety is the word..in malay we have a saying, "menarik benang dalam tepung...benang tak putus, tepung tak berselerak" means pulling a thread in flour (direct translation, that is) so that both thread and flour are intact. in life, however, that is not always the case. for me, when that happens, i revert back to few things i always revert back in such situation...nothing can hurt me unless i allow it...or..let it go, don't hold on to negative words...or i am what i am, who cares what they say. the problem with that is, things don't hurt too much if it was done by someone else...someone whom you think ought to know you well enough and yet could say the most 'unpleasant' things, your heart does rattles eventhough just a little...you think, how could he or she said that? but they did. i say, take a deep breath, dig deep into your heart and gather all your strength, smile, nod and quietly retires to your thoughts, positive thoughts about your dreams, your plans for tomorrow and, hold out your hands and thank THE ALMIGHTY for all his blessings. finally, say your prayer and retire to bed, early, because tomorrow, there will be a whole new day ahead of us.

Friday, May 7, 2010

lesson from a friend

a friend told me that if someone or something irritates me, chances are the reason is deep within me. how can that be possible, really?! because there are many, many crazy, selfish,unreasonable and...did i mention crazy...people out there that you have had the unfortunate experience of crossing path with them. believe you me, no matter how much yoga practice and meditation you had that day, it is almost impossible not to react either emotionally or physically...yes, finger signage included.
since she is someone i truly respect and who views on life i cherish, i find myself thinking long and hard about this each time i reacted. yes, yogi is human too. i don't claim to be otherwise. i tried telling this to my mom to just let go and try to understand or rather to amuse ourselves on my the @#$%^&& drive like a maniac! that way, we get the chance to amuse ourselves a lot especially while driving in KL roads and most importantly, we stay calm and our emotion learns, slowly but surely, to just let go.

in life, it's when we learn to let go, we learn to appreciate the beautiful things that life has to offer and yet, knowing these things too will not last.